Demented

I can simply make up my mind to abort the baby and probably regret later and suffer the consequences of the same. No one needs to know what happened and I can live with the guilt of killing a child that couldn’t even enter this world. Or I could inform Jace and my parents about the pregnancy. They’ll obviously be against the idea of abortion. I’ll either have to give up the baby for adoption and again end up dying out of curiosity about how the child is doing and who would be parenting him and how. Or I can raise the child. Maybe along with Jace. But you know I don’t possess the qualities to be a mother. I’m insensitive and have problems in handling strong emotions. I don’t want the child to suffer because of me.

How did I end up getting caught in this crossfire? Jace and I are both cautious of having protected sex. We both are very ambitious and on the peak our career. Although Jace is a little emotional, much more than me, but not so much that he would intentionally be this careless. I don’t know what am I going to do in this impromptu situation. Have a meeting with the senior manager tomorrow. I have a feeling it’s regarding my promotion. I’ve been expecting it since a month after my success at the Upliftment project.

PART – 2

Hello! It has been a long time since we had a session. I’ve booked you an hour slot in the coming Sunday morning. I hope we’ll be able to catch up with all that you would like to share with me.

About your current dilemma, I would like you to think and analyse all the options and their consequences carefully. Try not to take any decisions in a hurry.

From the last couple of sessions, I’ve gathered that Jace is indeed a good man and he cares a lot for you. You seem to care about him, too. You’ve also admitted that you trust Jace. Think about sharing this news with him. But if you’re still demented I’d like you to wait till our next session to take any further decisions.

I hope you’ve crossed the milestone that you were looking forward to since the last month.

Dr. Lisha Zaman.

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PART – 3

Topic: Mission Abort.

I got the promotion that I’d been expecting. I’ve been transfered to the headquarters of ShopKart. This will be the last month of my stay in this city. My parents and Jace were happy to hear the news. The headquarters of ShopKart is in Dale so I won’t be seeing much of Jace in the coming years. It reminds me of the memories when I first came to this city. Jace was working in Seden. He somehow managed to get a tranfer here within a couple of months. He really seems to be attached to me even though I’ve told him endless times that I won’t marry him or be his girlfriend.

I hope this time he won’t manage a tranfer to Dale along with me. Need some space to overcome what I did today. I aborted the baby. After receiving the promotion, I went crazy with all the confusion and emotions running through me. I still feel confused and shaken with the events that happened this morning.

I’ll meet you tomorrow.